Desire

Two hearts fading, like a flower.
And all this waiting, for the power.
For some answer, to this fire.
Sinking slowly. The water’s higher.
Desire

With no secrets. No obsession.
This time I'm speeding with no direction.
Without a reason. What is this fire?
Burning slowly. My one and only.
Desire

You know me. You know my way in.
You just can't show me, but God I'm praying,
That you'll find me, and that you'll see me,
That you run and never tire.
Desire

Am I A Commitment Phobe?

I have always wondered why I still haven't found THE one. The one that I could possibly stand to be with for the remainder of my days. Forever. That is a long time. I thought that I found someone like that, but after 5 years of struggling to make it work and a daughter later, I realized that forever shouldn't be that hard. So i left.

It was a hard decision to make. I could stay and make a miserable, but complete, family for my daughter...or I could leave and start over as a single mom in a mad world, tearing the kiddo away from any sort of familial life. I reasoned that she (and I) would be much happier if she was not stuck in between her parents' constant arguing. But, I digress.

So here I am faced with dating as a single mom. I was never any good at dating to begin with, but now I have another person to consider. I have always wanted the movie-esque romance. The kind that as soon as you lay eyes on the guy...you just know he's it. Unfortunately, it's only happened once to me, and the feelings weren't reciprocated. However, in retrospect, I see it was for the best.

I fear I just may be a commitment-phobe. Or is it that I just haven't found the one? Usually I find someone that fits the majority of the things I look for, but never everything. Should a person settle for almost all of the package? Am I being too picky?

So, if you are an intelligent, hairy (yes, I like the mountain man look), romantic guy that wears the retro colored tennis shoes and likes kids...come find me. You just might be the one.